I often think about what my children will remember about me long after I am gone. Not so much what they will recall about me personally, but what life lessons I will have been able to impart. One of my main goals as a mom is to teach them that it’s okay on occasion to be angry with God. Just as we sometimes get angry with people that we love, it doesn’t mean we stop loving them; and God is no different. I never want my children to be afraid of God, as if He is sitting up there, watching their every move, just waiting for them to make a mistake so He can outpour His wrath. That is such a misconception. I want my kids to know that God is a Father, and like most fathers, He wants the very best for His children. He wants them to love Him and trust Him and talk to Him. He wants them to know that He’ll never leave them, nor forsake them… He’ll never turn His back when they’ve made a poor choice. I want my kids to know that God forgives them each and every time they blow it; and not only forgives them, but helps them dust themselves off and scramble back to their feet when they fall down.
Life isn’t fair…but that doesn’t mean it isn’t good. Bad things can and do happen to very good people and it is natural, in those circumstances, to question why God allowed it to occur. I’ve had my share of broken moments, where I have been screaming at the Lord, like an angry child… His angry child. Through it all, He’s never stopped loving me and I’ve never stopped loving Him. I trust Him because I believe in Him and He’s only ever shown Himself faithful and loving, even in my darkest hours. I can’t explain why terrible things happen, but I know that when they happen, I am never alone.
It’s okay to be angry with God, He can take it. It’s okay to question what is written in the Bible and what others say about Him. In fact, it’s good to question. Questioning is a form of seeking and seeking will bring understanding of the truth. I want my children to never render themselves spoon-fed without researching and studying the Word of God for themselves. I want them to know that God’s love is not conditional…that they can do nothing to earn it and nothing to lose it. He is eternal and so is His love for us.
Life is a mystery and everything can change in the blink of an eye; but it isn’t a mystery to God and He doesn’t blink or miss a thing so there is no reason to live in fear. I want my kids to realize that God is bigger than everything and He’s a good one to have on their side. We will endure hardship but He causes all things to work together for good for those that love Him (Romans 8:28)… that’s a promise to which I cling and I hope my children will as well. ~